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This is Anakin Skywalker:
The most powerful Jedi of his generation. Perhaps of any generation. The fastest. The strongest. An unbeatable pilot. An unstoppable warrior. On the ground, in the air or sea or space, there is no one even close. He has not just power, not just skill, but dash: that rare, invaluable combination of boldness and grace. He is the best there is at what he does. The best there has ever been. And he knows it.
HoloNet features call him the Hero With No Fear. And why not? What should he be afraid of?
Fear lives inside him anyway, chewing away the firewalls around his heart. Anakin sometimes thinks of the dread that eats at his heart as a dragon. Children on Tatooine tell each other of the dragons that live inside the suns; smaller cousins of the sun-dragons are supposed to live inside the fusion furnaces that power everything from starships to Podracers.
But Anakin's fear is another kind of dragon. A cold kind. A dead kind.
Not nearly dead enough.
Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing. Am I driving myself to be someone I'm not? I don't know anymore.
I feel it dwelling within me, a certain blackness that threatens my every waking moment -- lingering like a dark cloud.
I try to fight it, but I'm not certain I can. I'm not certain I want to. I feel it's strength. The power. And the more it touches me, the more I want to feel it. To grab hold of it and never let go.
I want that power.
I need that power.
But I know I shouldn't. I shouldn't feel this way. I shouldn't want those things. I am a Jedi Knight. A Jedi shouldn't feel the need for more power.
But then why do I? Am I so different from everyone else? I am more powerful then all of them combined already, so why do I want more? Why do I need more?
I know they fear me. They fear my power. They fear what I could become.
Sometimes I wonder if I should give them a reason to fear.
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